current mood:

— about the webmaster

• name and nicknames
  
  [REDACTED]; " lull " / " lullruby " / " lullremedies " , Annie (friends)
  
  
• age
  
  20
  
  
• occupation
  
  Student, specifically a engineering major.
  
• why i chose it
  
  Short answer: i wike big building
  
  Long answer: I really enjoyed working with CAD and drafting software when doing my engineering project in high school, and realized that 1) it's very similar to digital art medium softwares and 2) i would not mind doing this for the rest of my life because it's so cool even though i don't like challenging math.
  
  Also, money.
  
  
• why i made this neocities
  
  I have the tendency to get lonely & want to make friends and gain a following doing things i enjoy doing, but realized social media causes me to become obsessed with this and spend hours upon hours on it comparing myself to other people. I also originally had one for art content but deleted it as it was very ugly and i lost interest, and felt like it needed to be a certain way.
  
  Having a neocities lets me have my own little space without entering an unhealthy mindset, trick myself into thinking im doing something productive by hyperfocusing on coding for 8+ hours despite procrastinating/not eating or drinking* and also generally has helped me improve in coding with CSS + HTML since it's really fun and brings me a big dopamine boost seeing it all come to fruition (^ ^)
  
  
  *(im being serious, sometimes i get so locked in working on this site that it literally makes me feel like Gumball in that one episode of TAWOG where he goes crazy and is dancing around at the end. my therapist calls it hyperfocusing but sometimes it gets really bad and i end up spending 8+ hours working on it just because i thought some type of feature would be cool/funny/cute to add and i HAVE to do it in one go to see what it'll look like
  OR i get overstimulated to the point im internally crashing out but still continue. im glad most of my other hobbies require me to actually go out the house and not just stare at the computer all day. (𖦹﹏𖦹;) -- although it does happen with some of those too.)
  
  
  
  
• hobbies
  
  Birdwatching, painting and drawing, going to the gym, playing rhythm games, rollerblading, crafts, working on this website, cosplay, learning chinese, scrapbooking and journaling.
  
  
• how my friends describe me
  
  A needy, neurotic, playful, kind, fit, creative woman who needs to go outside and talk to people more. . . .
  
  
• favorite color
  
  Lavender.
  
  
• favorite animals
  
  Titmice, calico cats, rats, rock pigeons and mourning doves. I will freak out about anything as long as it's cute or cool looking.
  
  
• favorite food
  
  Apples. Dish would probably be anything with rice.
  
  
• favorite music genres
  
  Shoegaze, Emo, Post-Hardcore, Happy Hardcore, Breakcore, Noise Pop, Lo-fi, Nu-metal, R&B, Jazz.
  
  
• favorite musical artists
  
  Title Fight, Whirr, Deftones, TAGABOW, Jejune, Goreshit, DJ Sharpnel, Kors K, Sade.